## How It Started
Growing up, your parents' attention was fleeting and conditional—one moment they were focused on you, the next they were completely absorbed in their own problems, work or their phone📱. Whether it was siblings vying for the same scarce attention, constant distractions pulling your parents away, or simply too many demands on their time, you discovered that staying visible required constant effort. You learned that you had to *compete for mental bandwidth* in a household where being noticed meant receiving care. If you stayed quiet and well-behaved you were ignored, so you discovered that creating enough noise, drama, or distress could reliably pull their focus back to you. This became your survival strategy—escalating your emotions or creating mini-crises whenever you sensed someone drifting away 🚢. You learned that calm contentment was dangerous because it meant *becoming invisible*. Your nervous system became wired to interpret inattention as `abandonment`, creating an internal alarm that screams "They're forgetting about you!" 
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## How This Shows Up In Relationships
In relationships, you find yourself attracted to partners whose attention is constantly divided—whether it's their work stress, their children, other interested people, their social life or simply their own thoughts. When you don't receive enough attention the voice in your head complains to you "They are taking you for granted!". When your partner seems distant, preoccupied or withdrawn, you find yourself *creating drama to get their attention* 🎭. Sometimes this is the only thing that brings their attention back to you. You might pick fights when feeling neglected, have emotional breakdowns that seem disproportionate, or find yourself sabotaging chill moments of distracted togetherness because *lack of consistent emotional closeness feels like the prelude to being forgotten*.
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## The Core Pattern
**Your deep desire for connection and your emotional expressiveness are genuine strengths**. However, this pattern can exhaust both you and your partner, creating a cycle where the only attention you end up getting from your partner is negative attention when they are putting out your fires 🔥. *The tragedy is you've learned to create distress to be seen and acknowledged*—when what you really want is simply being valued for who you are without having to earn it through crises. Life has taught you how to bring your partner's attention back to you, but only at the expense of relationship stability.

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