## How It Started
Growing up, your parents' attention was fleeting and conditional—one moment they were focused on you, the next they were completely absorbed in their own problems, work or their phone📱. Whether it was siblings vying for the same scarce attention, constant distractions pulling your parents away, or simply too many demands on their time, you discovered that staying visible required constant effort. You learned that you had to *compete for mental bandwidth* in a household where being noticed meant receiving care. If you stayed quiet and well-behaved you were ignored, so you discovered that creating enough noise, drama, or distress could reliably pull their focus back to you. This became your survival strategy—escalating your emotions or creating mini-crises whenever you sensed someone drifting away 🚢. You learned that calm contentment was dangerous because it meant *becoming invisible*. Your nervous system became wired to interpret inattention as `abandonment`, creating an internal alarm that screams "They're forgetting about you!" 
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## How This Shows Up In Relationships
In relationships, you find yourself attracted to partners whose attention is constantly divided—whether it's their work stress, their children, other interested people, their social life or simply their own thoughts. When you don't receive enough attention the voice in your head complains to you "They are taking you for granted!". When your partner seems distant, preoccupied or withdrawn, you find yourself *creating drama to get their attention* 🎭. Sometimes this is the only thing that brings their attention back to you. You might pick fights when feeling neglected, have emotional breakdowns that seem disproportionate, or find yourself sabotaging chill moments of distracted togetherness because *lack of consistent emotional closeness feels like the prelude to being forgotten*.
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## The Core Pattern
**Your deep desire for connection and your emotional expressiveness are genuine strengths**. However, this pattern can exhaust both you and your partner, creating a cycle where the only attention you end up getting from your partner is negative attention when they are putting out your fires 🔥. *The tragedy is you've learned to create distress to be seen and acknowledged*—when what you really want is simply being valued for who you are without having to earn it through crises. Life has taught you how to bring your partner's attention back to you, but only at the expense of relationship stability.

When Having Full Attention Is The Only Way to Be Loved

## Signs you might relate to this dating style:
> - You feel anxious when your partner seems distracted or preoccupied
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> - You create emotional drama to "win back" their attention
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> - Calm, stable relationships feel boring or unnerving
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> - You're hyper-aware of anything competing for your partner's focus
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> - You believe "If I don't make noise, I'll be forgotten"
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> - Your most intense bonding happens during crises
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> - You're drawn to caretakers who respond to distress
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> - Peaceful moments make you worry the relationship is fading

## How it started:
> - You learned early that quiet contentment meant being ignored
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> - You discovered only loud emotions or crises reliably got attention
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> - You had to compete with siblings/work/parents' problems for focus
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> - Being "too good" meant becoming invisible in your family

## You attract:
> - **The Attention-Divided**: They juggle work/kids/stress, giving you endless things to compete against for their focus
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> - **The Crisis Responder**: They only fully engage when you're upset, so you learn to stay distressed to keep them close
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> - **The Overwhelmed Caretaker**: Your emotional needs give them purpose, but they burn out from constant crisis management
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> - **The Guilt-Driven Rescuer**: They feel responsible for your emotional state, creating a perfect storm of codependency
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> Your nervous system relaxes around these partners because they prove your childhood math works—love requires winning attention battles, and calm equals abandonment

## Who you're drawn to:
> - **The Calm Achiever**: Their self-sufficiency triggers your deepest envy and terror—they represent the quiet contentment you never learned
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> - **The Distracted Workaholic**: Their preoccupation activates your attention-competing instincts, but guarantees you'll never feel prioritized
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> - **The Reformed Drama Queen**: They've learned to be "stable" but secretly miss the intensity you provide
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> - **The Emotionally Unavailable**: Their withdrawal feels like a challenge to win, but their distance recreates your childhood attention starvation
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> - You mistake their crisis responsiveness for "true love"—but really, you're just addicted to the dopamine hit of successfully capturing their focus through distress

## Core pattern:
> - You learned that love means fighting for attention, so you make sure your partner never forgets about you through emotional escalations—but this only makes it harder to be valued for who you are or to walk away when you’re not

## What healthy attraction looks like:
> - Someone who notices you without needing a crisis
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> - Partners who stay present even when you're calm and content
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> - Relationships where attention flows naturally, not competitively
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> - People who celebrate your quiet moments as much as your passionate ones
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> - Connections where you don't have to outcompete work, phones, kids, or other priorities

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