Growing up with unreliable, manipulative, or emotionally unavailable caregivers taught your nervous system to recognize certain relationship patterns as "normal" - *even when they were harmful* ❤️‍🩹. Your developing brain wired these chaotic dynamics as familiar territory. When caregivers were unpredictable or withholding, your mind learned to resolve the `cognitive dissonance` by assuming you were the problem - if you could just be better, smarter, well-behaved, or simply more lovable, they would give you the consistent love you deserved. This survival strategy made you incredibly skilled at *taking responsibility for others' emotional unavailability*, teaching you to maintain hope 🤩 even when others would have given up, and ignoring the red flags 🚩 that might have threatened your essential bonds. You became a master at finding reasons to stay connected to unreliable people, developing loyalty and persistence that perplexes others 🤷‍♀️. You learned to see potential and goodness even in the most difficult people—genuine strengths that kept you safely bonded in an unstable early life environment.<br><br>But now you unconsciously keep selecting partners who recreate the same emotional dynamics you learned to navigate as a child. You find yourself attracted to people who make you work very hard for their love and attention 😓, and create the same kind of chaos in your life you grew up managing. These relationships *feel like a second job where you're constantly trying to prove your worth*, just like you had to as a child with your caregivers. Each new relationship feels like it might be different this time, but somehow the same dynamics emerge: the *withholding of affection until you change at the core and improve yourself*, the feeling that you're never quite right or enough, the constant sense that love is conditional and must be earned. You find yourself in the same position—*working harder and harder to get the love and validation* that always seems just out of reach. A part of you believes that if you can persevere long enough and learn to manage your "unrealistic expectations" of unconditional love and being accepted for who you are—you'll heal your `childhood trauma`. But this strategy for healing the wounds of the past is exactly the same one you've used as a kid—it only deepens them, creating repeated disappointments that you never quite get used to.

When chasing unavailable love feels like home

## Signs you might relate to this dating style:
> - You feel most "in love" when chasing someone who's pulling away
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> - Friends get frustrated watching you give chance after chance
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> - Peaceful relationships make you anxious - you wait for the other shoe to drop
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> - You're great at seeing potential in troubled partners
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> - You stay hopeful much longer than others would
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> - You believe if you love hard enough, you can "fix" someone's unavailability
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> - Sex feels most intense after emotional drama or distance

## How it started:
> - Love was unpredictable growing up - here one minute, gone the next
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> - You learned to cherish rare moments of attention
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> - Your worth felt tied to how much neglect you could endure
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> - Chaos felt more familiar than stability

## You attract:
> - **The Breadcrumber**: Gives just enough attention to keep you hooked but never fully commits
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> - **The Revolving Door**: Comes and goes unpredictably, keeping you constantly adjusting
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> - **The Fixer-Upper**: Has so much potential if only you love them enough to change
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> - **The Comparison**: Always makes you compete with others for their attention
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> Your nervous system calms around these partners because they prove your childhood math works - love means working hard for scraps while ignoring your own needs

## Who you're drawn to:
> - **The Unattainable**: Their distance feels exciting because the chase feels like love
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> - **The Hot-and-Cold**: Their mixed signals keep you constantly trying to decode them
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> - **The Wounded Bird**: You believe if you heal them, they'll finally love you right
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> - **The Commitment-Phobe**: Their hesitation gives you endless projects to prove your worth
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> You mistake anxiety for passion - but really, you're just replaying childhood patterns where love was something to earn, not receive freely

## Core pattern:
> - You keep choosing partners who make you prove your worth, because deep down you don't believe you're lovable as you are

## What healthy attraction looks like:
> - Someone who's excited to see you without games or tests
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> - Partners who match your effort without being chased
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> - Relationships where love feels easy more often than hard
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> - People who appreciate you without needing to be convinced
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> - Connections where your value isn't tied to how much you endure

Same Dance, Different Partners

Chronic illness or disability in the family

Cyberbullying / public humiliation by peers

Emotionally distant or unavailable parent

Family with rigid roles and no tolerance for autonomy

Fear-based or authoritarian parenting style

Involvement with child protective services or foster care system

Living in unsafe or high-crime neighborhoods

No safe adult to turn to for emotional support

Parent who experienced domestic violence as a child

Parent who experienced exploitation as a child

Parent who experienced loss of a parent as a child

Parent who experienced neglect as a child

Parent who experienced parental abandonment as a child

Parent who experienced sexual abuse as a child

Parent who experienced violence, assault, rape

Parent who was institutionalized or placed in foster care as a child

Parent with anorexia and eating disorders

Parent with borderline personality disorder (bpd)

Parent with extreme paranoia, delusions, or conspiracy beliefs

Parent with obsessive-compulsive disorder (ocd)

Parent with self-harm or suicidal behaviors

Parent with undiagnosed or untreated personality disorder

Physical abuse in orphanage/group home/religious school

Pressure to be the "more responsible one"

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💃🕺 Same Dance, Different Partners: When chasing unavailable love feels like home

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